A lot movies

Hello blokes. I am super bored, because I dont have a job or school, so I am just sitting on the computer 24/7. Well I started to watch bunc of the movies and jogging, My life still need someting else. 

And this post is only movies. so LOL. 

I watched all Monster high movies and also some Web episodes. If I need to choose my favourite Monster High movies, my favourites are Haunted and Freaky Fusion. Also I cant wait new Monster High movie Boo York , Boo York , because that movie has new monsters, who are musician.

This movie is AMAZING! Plot was really good, character is really good and also,,,,,, FALL OUT BOY! Yes I am huge fan of Fall out Boy. But let's talk about this movie, Hero is really cute and sympathic boy, sadly he lost his brother. But anyway my facourite character is Tomage, she clearly loves speeds , as me, since I mostly play fast videogame characters, example Team Fortress 2 Scout. Also Robot, Big something, I dont remember robot's name, he is really friendly and cute chubby robot. Darn, seems I am only writing about how amazing they are. I am really bad at reviewing movies. 

I had long time plan to watch the social network , I hate that movie. Nothing else to say. 

Ah Maleficent , best "real-action" Disney Movie. Angelina Jolie fits perfectly to Maleficent character. She is so beautiful. It's was really refreshing to see another side, another story Maleficent's point of view. Never thought that she has wings, or especially she is mad/angry at "ex boyfriend". Well "ex-boyfriend" cut her wings off, but that is not big deal, is not? It's was really nice to see hoiw super villain can be hero at same time, keeping Aurora save. Also ending, was just big WOW,  I thought, sweet charm prince to wake aurora with kiss, but no. True love is not always boy-girl love, well love can be like mother-like lovem which Maleficent has to Aurora.

But see you at next time! 

Movies, movies

Hello blokes! Finland have really, really lovely weather. Really cold and rainy weather. I kinda wanted to have some really hot days, but this weather is nice too, if it's not reminds me about autumn.

On last week steam sales orginated, and I havent buy single games. It's funni how many games some players bought. Friends of mine bought over 50 games and he have summer school thingie and alot of exams. Well it's good have steam sales, but I never find good games to buy, also I have many games, which actually I have never touched. only playing few games, tf2, killing floor and skyrim. Since i Have alot time, I could to play all games, what I have, well that is even better than picking nose and complaing how boring life I have.

I really need say, I became huge Hunger Game fan. How this began. Friend of mine sent a link for site, which renegrates whole story, I liked that idea and I decided to make Panda-Community Hunger Games. That became so popular on panda-forum , I made another game and now we are having one game in every month, and that not will be normal game, it is gampling/raffling. So it's rally nice game tho. After posting second Panda-community hunger game, I really wanted to watch hunger games movies. I liked first and second movie and I dislike a lot mockingjay part 1, it's really, really boring game. But now I have seen Hunger games and cathing fire like 3-4 times, they are really amazing movies.

I still see bow as spatula

Other movies what I watched are Night at the museum 3 and X-Men Days of future past. Night at the museum 3 is really hilarious movie, but kinda sad, since Robbie Williams is one best actors on my fav. actor list. And I watched X-Men Days of future past, well i wanted watch that, because Jennifer Lawrence, and check how she fits to Raven/Mystique role. I had watch all X-Men movies, but never realized that, Jennifer is Raven on X-Men first class movie.

I have strong urge to make new banner and maybe change a bit this blog's layout. But one problem is that, I dont know, do I want summer-like theme or do I stick with snow-mountain-like theme. But it's opportunity work with SFM. IF that little piece of shit is working now.

But see you at next time! 

Little haul

Hello blokes! Yeah I know, I haven't write while. But anyway, I finally got 15 readers on my blog. Many thanks! 

My previous mouse broke. So I needed to buy new one. So I bought Razer Naga, and I love this mouse. This is so smooth, good size, since I since like to use big mouses. Also so many side buttons. Also rollbutton has right-left buttons. Now I need to learn abit of macros and stuff, stil I need to make a perfect mouse for me.

I finally found my favourite pony Funko figure <3 I junted so long time this and I started to think order one from ebay, but what I heard, there is so many "pirate" Funko figures. And I really want to buy real ones.

Also I got this, hmm like 2-3 weeks ago. I am not huge Adventure time fan. but I really love characters, especially Lumpy. It's so cute and funny. 

But see you at next time! 

I finally graduated

Hello blokes. My throat is hurting. I am not even sick, but since now is "lovely" spring and alot of pollen. Yes I have pollen allergy or what ever name was. Too much coughing and headache. I really love "pollen time".

I finally graduated, feels good man. I dont have 

reference about it, but hope my "old" school will send that soon as possible. Next step is taking short(?) break, then I will search job. I still dont know, what kind of work I want to do, since my liking is changing pretty fastly. Now I like alot of coding. I started to make own "skins" to Panda-Community. Now I am trying to code single sites, because if I have background, it's shows others sites too. 

I didint have graduate partys as others finnish usually has. Well I have small "party" with my mom and two big brothers. Or can I even call that party, we are going to eat sandwich cake. That's it. 

Hmm, since most of my friends has summer vacation nows and they has alot time to spend with me, but still, I kinda became more lonely. I thought we have alot time to play together, like killing floor 1 and team fortress 2. But meh, maybe I will be forever alone whole summer ^^. Who knows. 

Short post tho, I kinda dont know what I should to write, since my life is not interesting, because I spend my time with videogames and coding/music/paint.net/etc. But anyway, see you at next time! 

"Sidebald"

Hello blokes! It's week without work/school and I am super bored. Only sitting on computer, playing videogames, watching youtube videos, twice per day running or walking and sleeping, alot sleeping. Well, it's good have time to relaxing abit begore going to work, if I find one.

At this monent, I am really frustrated. Why? My weight is not changed in any way in 3 month. Well I feel fantastic, I am happier and I am not tired anymore. But still, my weight, is still same, even my body didint change at all. I eat pretty healthier, sometimes I eat sweets and my consumption is bigger than what I eat.

I shaved one side of my hair off, because why not YOLO. I dreamed long time having sidebald (or whatever name is), i cannot shave earlier, because I had customer service and this is kinda too "brutal" for that kinda job. Now I dream about red hair, since I have not "dirty" looking green hair and I need something new to my life. I have red dye hair conditioner (not sure about name), so it's time to use that, when I am not too lazy and I have alot time, probably never.

I started to read crazily mangas. I havent read while comics or mangas and I have alot mangas, what I havent read yet. I just finished Dragonball , really good manda and anime is not bad too, but sadly, it's ended, I wanted to read more. I could watch Dragonball anime soon, when i finished watching Gravity Falls (didint started yet, lol). 

But anyway, see you at next time blokes! 

Vacation!

Hello blokes! Sorry about "break", haven't write over week, but anyway , I had last work day today. Ah it's finally over. Now I realize, how how fast time went, feels like I just started my first vocational school day, and now it's last day. Well I still have two really small school tasks to do and I dont have any idea what I need to do, but hope I will get information about that on next week.

Since I have alot time, I should to do something constructive. Some ideas what I got are

Lose some weight
Yes, I will abit talk about this subject. And yes, I know that I am not fatty, more chubby than fatty. But I want to be abit slimmer what I used to be. I am not loosing weigth because of trend. I want to look more heatlhier than how I look now. Also, walking gives to me a amazing inspirations and it's make me pretty happy.

Stop smoking
Unfortunately I smoke and i admit it, it's really, really bad habitat. I really need to rid off smoking.

Learn English
I have alot grammar mistakes and spoken english is lack

Last week mailguy brougth huge package to me. I didint had any idea, what I ordered from ebay. I opened that package and i found this huge Mario pillow.

I bought few day ago "new" MacBook. This one cost 30 euros , so why not. MacBook is 5-6 years old laptop. This is called MacBook 7.1 if someones are wondering which macbook this is. I bougth this, because i wanted to learn abit better about MacBook's operating system.

Yes, this will be short post. But dont worry, since I have time to put effor to this blog, so I will write more often than earlier. 

But see you at next time!

Finnish weather and clean room

Hello blokes! I started to clean my computer. First i started to uninstall all softwares, what i needed for my school, like virtual box and visual developer expert 2010. Also i going to uninstall rainmeter. Rainmeter is relly good software, you can decorate your desctop with that. Reason why i want uninstall that, i have alot skins and stuff, which are taking too much spaces and i dont use them all. And nowadays, i dont even use any Rainmeter skins anymore, maybe i will use them on future, but not now, and it is taking spaces and stuff. Next mission is clean my computer from all dust. And that is really lovely to do, not.

Finnish weather is really, really strange. Few days ago was raining snow, water and again snow. It was getting lovely warm and all snow was melted, but no, suddenly wild snow storm appears. Now here is raining really hard, all snow are melted off, i kinda like rainy days, especially rainy nights, it's help me to relax abit better to hear raindrops hitting to class, that noice what they make, is somehow really relaxing. But there is more, weather forecast is saying that, at next week, we are going have another snow storm, so yeah, welcome to finland, to everlasting winter country.

I cleaned my room, finally i decided to do that. My room, was really, really messy, empty cans laying on the floor, tissues everywhere, dirty clothes everywhere. I dont know why that happened, but now its feels good "live" on clean room, where i am spending most my time. Well, i still need to clean my wardrobe, since i have alot clothes, which are too way big for me, well i like big t-shirt and stuff, but those shirt, what i have, is too big. Also i lost my camera's charger, so i cant use that, i dont have any idea where i put that, but hope i find it soon, because i dont want to buy new one. So all pictures, what i take and publish there, is kinda crappy, so sorry about that.

I threw alot stuff away, broken clothes, which was laying on the floor, old papers, includind really old homeworks, bills and personal life papers, old cosmetics. I dont know why i still had over 5-6 years old hair caring products, never used them, but still i wanted to keep them, if i really need them.

Also i found my old ipod, oh sweet memories. I bought this one like 4-5 years ago on local departent store. Sadly this ipod's earphone plug thingie is not working, i dont know why, but one day, i plugged my earphones, it made really, really strange voice and stopped to work. Sadly, this was really good product to me.

My first apple product was ipod nano, i dont remember what sized that was. I did two weeks works to buy new mp3. My old mp3 before ipod was, probably sony's mp3, which only had 1-2 gigabytes and it only worked with batteries. I remeber those times, when i used this like bottle opened xD, sadly i dont have this one anymore, i gave this to my friend, who prabably threw away, cause it didint work anymore, not sure what my friend did to it.

I wanted something "new" to my life, so i started to jog. And i decided to lose some weight. I dont gain weight easily, even i am eating fast food, sweets and stuff, but i wanted to get abit healthier life, than what i had. Good thingie i already lost 1 kg and i thinked to lose 4 kg more, then i am happy, i guess so.

Few days ago i got all my iphone case. I ordered all of them from ebay. I really like pacman and panda ones, and case with bow is really adorable.

I cutted my hair, RIP emohair, but i like short bangs, but i need to dye my hair to blue/green, because why not?

But anyway, see you at next time!. 

Short atm

Hello blokes! My graduating is soon, almost 3 weeks (i hope so) work and school stuff, then i am finally free. Sadly i still dont know what i want to do. What i thinked abot my interesting stuff, i like alot "software side", hardware side is not that interesting, its only buidling and such. So i gonna improve my english skills and start to search job when i english skill are pretty good. Well i am pretty good at english but not good enough, i cant even speak in english without breaks, so i need to improve my spoken english, because why not. And i have alot grammar errors, so i need to fix that too.

I started to play some borderlands 1 with my friends, sadly my friends discoverd GTA5 , so i only played game alone, which is kidna sad. Also i watched new monster high movie, huanted, i am not sure did i mention about that. But that was really good movie, maybe best movie ever.

Also two weeks ago Mlp season 5 started, my opinion about season 5. Well first 3 episodes was really, really horrible, i think mlp is getting downhill soon, and i really hope season five will be last season. Also new songs of Equestria girls are released

Friendsip Through the Ages

My Past is Not Today

Life is a Runway

I am making new layout for this blog, also my blog gonna have new name, i dont know when my blog going have new layout or other els, but i think that time is soon. 

But see yah at next time, and sorry about this post being so short, i have school stuff and i want to make then quicly, so i can relax the last weeks. So i am spending my time to doing my thesis, which is last thingie for my graduate progress. 

Skyrim and stupid Miraak

Hello blokes. I started to play Skyrim. Well i skipped main guest and traveled to Solheist or whatever that was. That island look pretty good, but there is one bad thingie. They can insta kill me. Its really hard play there, but still, its kinda funny play and its finally hard and i get some challenges. BUT, i made huge mistake on Skyrim, since i started to play on Solhsteim, started to play Miraak quest, now, i cant get any dragon suols, cause Miraak steals then, even if i am on skyrim "land", i cant get any dragon souls, whick means i cant unlock any dragon shouts, and few quests needs to use dragon shouts, so , i guess , i fucked up that game and i am just reallt lazy to start new skyrim game. Maybe i will try to play that current game.

And when i started to play again, i shot bear, with 2 shots, i was like, hell no, are they nerfed this game again and i checked my difficulty setting, and it was on adept. Well, adept is normal, and usually i play on legendary, which is hardest difficulty. On last steam account, my skyrim buddy was around lvl 55. On current steam accound my skyrim buddy is only lvl 23 and i am raging on sholsteim, which is for over level 50. Also i have shitty armor and weapon, i really need to buy or find better one. And i tryed nexmods, sadly that I cant install that one, everytime when I am installing that one, its crash, every fucking time. I wanted to try better blood mods and re-skin mods ;___;

I bought alot games, cause steam sales, so why not. First game, Mirror's edge. I had this game before, when i had playstation 3. But now, i bought this game on computer. And i didint never finished this game, but now i have change to play this game 100%.

Also, i bougth bordelands 1 and 2. I dont remember did i mentioned about those game before. But anyway, i bougth bordelands 1 with DLC. Also i bought Lego Hobbits and Lego Lord of the Ring. Its actually really good to get orher games than shooting games.

Also i got new router, yes finally. Cicso something, i dont remember what was product "numbername", only know that it is cicso. My internet is more faster than then when i had old router. Also my internet doesnt crash anymore, or being too laggy. And now i can host own servers on killing floor, minecraft and etc. 

But now i stop writing, so see you at next time. Oh i almost forgot, my blog is getting new name and layout, yes again. Silly panda is not uniqie name anymore, and poeple dont know, what exactly my blog is. So hope i get new blog stuff at next time.

What i dont understand about females

Hello blokes!. I wanted to write about what i dont understand about females. Even i am female, i dont understand them too. Females are just really strange and wierd. And no, i dont general this thingie, this is my opinino about others females, and remember i dont talk all females, if you are not like what i wrote, then you are not.

1. Why they shaves their eyebrow, and draw them back?

Why females shaves their eyebrows, and draw them back?. Ok someones can draw them back pretty well and its looks pretty good. But still, its not. Well, i'll be honest now, i shaved once my eyebrows off and i draw stupid dots thingie, its was really, really stupid, i dont know why i did that. Sadly i dont have picture of that, i wanted to show how ridiculous that was. Well i learned that , i dont never, ever shave my eyebrows off. That was my mistake.

2. Why females use alot makeups?

Females are telling that males are liers, that only males are lieing 24/7. Well on my opinion, females are bigger liers ever,  Females are wearing alot makeup everyday, spend so much time to do makeups, also they are using push bras, fakenails, fake eyelashes, fakeboobs and fakehair. And they that is normal? No it is most disqusting thing ever. i dont use alot makeup, well i dont wear them anyways, but sometimes i make eye makeup and use foundation but still, i am too lazy to wear. Also my skin feels better without makeups. So why pretend to being beautiful (or some cases, makeups makes more uglier than they are)

Also fakenails, that is really useless shit. If they want long nails, then they need to grow their nails. I had really, really long nails, but somehow i started again bite my nails, so they are kidna short now, and every time when i am trying to grow my nails, i start to bite them off. Well, i want long nails again, but i dotn want to buy and use my money for fakenails, i want grow my nails. And what i readed about fakenails, if females use fakenails long time, its start to ruin natural nail, its make more softer and thinner, and they will break easily.

3. Why females lie alot?
Like clothing and etc. If someone is asking how much that purse cost , females need to tell like "oh yeah, its was on sale" or "its didint cost much" . Purse's reall price was like over 100 €.

4. Why females treat males like they are just trash?
I cant live without males, well, almost all my friends are males. Because i play alot and other females dont play. So that is they biggest why my friends are males. And male's humor its best, even better than females. So back in the case, why females treat males so shittiest way ever, like calling them to piggys, pedofhiles and female-beater. Males have feelings too. I know pretty many persons who are really sensetive. Okay, men need to be strong and etc, but still, all need to treat nice eac others.

5. Why females buy alot useless stuff?

Like alot makeups, clothes, shoes and purses. They even dont need that much of stuff.  They only buy stuff because they looks so nice? Who knows.

6. Why females are use alot of hairsprays and different deodorants?

In my school, girls use alot deodorants and hairsprays, too much, that hairspay starts to taste in my mouth, ugh i need to say. Also i cant breath strong scents, i get easily headache. Well in my school we have asthma bathroom, first school years i always used that bathroom , cause no scents. But nowadays, i dont know which one is worst, asthma bathroom or normal bathroom, since girls are using hairspray and other toxic too on asthma bathroom, and teachers doesnt do anything. Gosh........
I wish if school have rule "Any hairspray and deodorants are forbidden". But meh, good thing, i graduate soon, i hope so.

But see you at next time!

SFM is working ❤

Hello blokes! Lets have selfie time XD

I found new passion to do some SFM stuff. Now i can animate stuff, without crashing. So maybe soon i will release new SFM video. Its really funny and really teaching moment. I had learned many stuff by SFM, i need to learn more, but still, it so pleasure to do animations.

Finnish weather is really beautiful now. Sunny and warm, sadly all snow are melting off and ground is really wet. and soon is the time, pollen time. Oh fuck. I dont want to get dry eyes, leaking nose and sneezing, since i need to do customer services everyday, also i dont want to buy allergy pills to feel better. And allergy pills actually rekt my belly.

Its so close, my graduate, finally i dont need to do school stuff, which are actually pretty stupid, they are just really easy. I dont even get any exprerience of scool, all stuff are self learned. And usually i make my schoolworks at home, since i can do them without bothering, also i dont need rush them. Also i can listen music while doing them. well, music is most important to relax and focus to do something, without music, i cant do anything. that reminds me, i need to search new music, since i got abit bored of songs, which i raped alot like "meet the crew", "get jinxed" and etc. So i need to change my music list on my phone too.

I failed of my dream, that i wont buy new games if i have many games, which i am not even played. So i bough 3 games, damm you steam sales. So i bough borlerlands 1 with DLC's, bordelands 2 and Dwarf game, i dont even remember what was name, but it is form tripwire, who made killing floor games.

 Lol, i just realised that my life is actually pretty same, only playing some videogames, and chatting with friends, watching, youtubevideos, sometimes some hauls and still, i want write of my life. Maybe this is interesting, or maybe not. But some ho, i need something more for my life. Since i am 23 years old, i dont do anything else. Dammet, now this is getting deeper. But any way, see you at next time!

Abit atm and blog's update

 Yes, thanks for memories ~ for someone, who probably know whos i am talking about  

Hello blokes! .  I am back!, yes unfortunately. i was whole weekend sick, probably i had fever and cold, still i have abit sneezing and sniffing. But i am pretty well atm. Here is picture of sick Skiffa

And there is another pic of me. Best picture i say? :D. Yes this is my casual clothing style, with different colored socks. I dont get it, ehy my socks keeps loosing and i only find different socks to use. 

But, now on this day's topic, my blog's updates ^^. I changed abit my blog's layout. Biggest modification is my banner. Now its cute and better than my earlier one. Why i wanted to make new one? Well, first , i didint like that silly pink backgroud of my banner, and also it looked abit stupid. 

Old one

New one

Well, i need to agreed that, i am not good of drawings. But somehow, new banner's panda was really adorable, so i wanted to use it. This is actually pretty funny, espeacially for me. When i wrote my finnish blog, i made all pictures (expect camera pictures) using Ms Paint. Yes, ms paint. Be honest, i was actualyl pretty nub with drawing softwares, but one day, i wanted to try Paint.net. And its was really, really easy to use. So all my banners, wallpapers etc, is made by Paint.net. 

Also , i change my linkbar. Now it is simply, but still look smore professional, than before one, which was messy looking. And i had mini link bar on right side of this blog. I removed that one, its looked pretty bad on this blog. There is one more new modification, i finally made  "about me" and Links pages. And that took for me like over month? Yes i know, im pretty lazy. I have to say Lol for me. 

Oih, i almost forgot! Also i started to use plug.dj. what that is, well it is music place, where u can make new friends and share your favourite music. So i have silly panda channel here.  Clicking that plug.dj logo you can visit on my channel, and hope you will like it! :) 

P.S I am usually online while i am on computer, when i am offline, i am probably sleeping or at work/school. Also, dont be shy and show your favourite music! 

But, hope you guys like my new blog's layout and "new features". But see you next time! 

Ah, english ❤

Hello blokes! How i am? Im pretty good, thanks for "asking". No, i am really , really happy, because i wrote with friend of mine. And she indeeded that my english has improved alot. Well, my english skills are much better than couple month ago, before this blog's first post, i had really messy english. Plenty words switces places, and i overused word "to" , like i want to play, i want to hug, i gonna go to bed, Well those sentence are corretly written, or i think so. But anyway , i almost have word "to" on every sentence, so now i abit understand "to's" meaning, like when i need to write/say that word. Hmm i think that i had problems with for/from/of and etc, so i replaced them into "to". Also i didint know word's past forms, luckily i know them, well most of the. And also i started to improve my spoken english. Well, i'll be honest, i talk alot with myself in english, sometimes in finnish too. Yeah, i am weird, but that actually helped me to improve spoken english, really good to assimilate spoken words. I still have problems to say some words, like probably and comfortable, i dont know why i cant even pronounce them words, its quite hard to me. And i have one word, which i am pronouncing sometimes wrongly, word "language", which is in pronounced "langwich", some how, sometimes i say that "landwich", So i need to rid off from that mistake. But good thing is, i have better bacis konwledge of english. But still i need to improve more, and i am happy cause i have britis and american persons, who are helping me alot.

One thing about this english thingie. If you want to improve your english skills, i suggest to start blog, or get writing buddy. I started to write blog, baceause i wanted to improve my english skill better. And its helped alot, i rarely use google translate nowadays, only if i need to write really long words or i dont know what something is in english. So i higly recommend to them, whos are wanting to improve english or something else language.

Also i have one problem of languages. That we finnsih have two native language, finnish and swedish. And i know only one sentence on swedish, and it is jag inte talar svenska, which is in english i dont speak swedish. I dont know nothing else and its seems bothering some persons. Htey has to asked that why i improve englsih instead of swedish. Well, honestly, i dont need to improve swedish, i dont use that language often than english. I use english like every day, because all of my internet friends are talking in english than swedish, so why i want to improve swedish?

But see you next time!

ATM part 32425303249239.

Hi blokes! I have really strange way. That i am always whole monday nigth awake, every fucking monday. I dont know why, maybe its better way to get better sleep rhythm. I always try to sleep, but no, its really hard to catch some sleeps, because i am search such silly things on google, like how i can make pizza cake or on youtube, i am watcihng how to made videos. They are kinda, hmm, interesting, but quite boring videos. But i don tknow, i have to watch them. And probably i am watching soon really strange videos, like water birth. Yes, this happen to me like 2 weeks ago, i was only watching videos of water births.  

One day of beautiful day, i checked my steam and i saw how much games i have, and never finished them. So i have little project, finish all games what i have. Also , since i love play videogames, so why not. I dont only want to play team fortress, even it is really good game, but still, i want something different of my life. So next project Bioschock, i have all games of Biosock, so why not. It is really good game, ow i know? My big brother has to play those games when he lifes with mom. So its gaves to me interesting of them.

One thing i actually dont understand, that why my weight is like yoyo. Yes, my weigth is getting up and getting down, every fucking day my weigth is 2 kg lower or upper. So its getting pretty annoying. everything, when i see that i am "losed" some weigths, and next day, its not same weigths what that was last day.Sniff. well i am fatty, always tiny fatty buns :3. Well, i have quite high lowesteem, so if i am complaing myself, its mostly jokes of me, so im not judgeing me. So dont worry mate!.

I started to clean my room. Its super messy room, also i want to decorate its mor elike videogame theme. So i started to sell old stuff, which is including movies,playstation 1/2, PSP and nintendo games. So only sold 4 games, 5 € each. Also i have alot "old" important papers, which are actually trashpaper nowaday. Also i am searching stuff of videogames, like team fortress, portal and minecraft. So maybe i make room makeover post soon. Will see.

I thinked to draw new banner, since i got tired of that current banners, well its personal and cute, but meh, i dont like it anymore, so i thined to draw fatty panda, maybe with controller. Also i need to do them links and about me pages. And maybe to do new layout of this blog. Since i love to do different layouts, so why not?  its good way to kill boring time, and always little differents makes days. 

But see you next time!

Sad panda

Hello blokes! i am abit sad, because i checked my "possible" future jobs, well, first thing at here where i am living, here is not anything good, mostly customer services and selling computers and mobiles. Well, i dont want to only sell stuff. I want work with computer stuff. Second, in Helsinki, there i found plenty good jobs, but they want person, who is really good at english, so that failed too, because, im not good enough on english, especially at spoken english, i am horrible speaking english. Well, be honest, i am horrible at written english too. But one dream is improve my english skills better and that and it has been successful in part. Third, Helsinki's apartment are pretty pricy. So i need to have good job to pay my apartment and food monthly.

So seems that i dont have any future plans. And its makes me sad, de fuck, im getting more and more despressed. I dont want to live my whole day with my mom, without money, spending my mom's money and etc. Its so immature to me. I really need to thing my future. What i want to do, where i want to do that which are really important to me. One option is to become waster, but i want to earn my money. Well, i want to entertain others, but that cant be my "future jobs". It is more like hobby for me. And i love makes people to smile. 

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRGGGG!!!!

All my friends has future plans, and part of them actually has a job, and they enjoy that what they are doing. They are telling what they needed to on their work, and seems they are really happy to having their own future. I cant even tell them that "yeah, seems funny, well i dont have any future plans, so yeah" . Of cource i am happy for their life and etc, but i cant hold my emotions and mind. Its still bring in my mind those stuff. 

Well, now i cleared abit my mind, so see you next time!